Dear Diary...
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Tomorrow is your birthday xiao zhu. i don't know other than him what else can i do to make you happy. Last night i went to pass you your present and i thought i could just make you happy, but it always end up you crying. Do you know everytime you cry for him, telling me about all the good times you shared with him and how sweet and how badly you want him back, in my heart i shouted COME BACK to me and i will never let you get hurt ever again. But i didn't cause i know all you think was him. I'm so jealous of him even though i don't even know him. You told me you tried very hard to remember everything he did for you, asking to look at his photos because you felt happy and proud showing people and listening to him singing in end up you crying. I was crying in my heart. maybe i was too used to the pain inside. i'm tired of crying also ba i guess. Well maybe that's the way i love you ba. Can only be there for you when you need me. That is the best i can do ba. I've already received my present from you finally after 2 years and that is giving me your 1 week to me. I've never been so happy to see you and messaging you after 2 long years. Even though everytime my heart goes numb but you will never understand the feeling of wanting to meet you and you agree. You are my one and only till now. You really make me want to surrender my soul to you only. = )
silly you;7:32 AM
